I recall one day being in church and during worship service tears began to stream down. The overwhelming sensation I felt could not be controlled. I felt the urgency shout and at that moment I asked Jesus to Please find me. Repeatedly I asked because I felt so lost and uncertain of everything. I can openly admit that I struggle in my walk with Christ. I get close and then I pull back. It’s come to a point where I feel that once I get the dead weight out of my life I will be free from this bondage.

My relationship with Christ is important to me. The most important relationship I could ever have. Thank God for maturity because I am now able to see why God set His standards when it comes to relationships with others. Being unequally yoked with a mate was not a part of God’s design. I can admit that my relationship with my daughter’s father is the very example of an unequal union. It takes more than just saying you believe in God, your lifestyle has to be a reflection of that. My life reflects the poor choices I made, the mistakes I’ve made, and doing things outside of what God had planned for me.

Rededicating my life back to God is the only sure way I can show Him that I am done with living in error and that I need Him now more than ever. He can provide for me in ways I can’t for myself as well as love me more and honestly than any man on earth could. This is my public declaration that I, Angel am a sinner and am in need of repentance. I acknowledge that Jesus Christ is the Son of God, the true Messiah, and the Savior of the world.

So on this day, I make this request once again, Jesus, please find me.